But Moses protested again, " What if they don't believe me or listen to me? What if they say the Lord never apperared to you?"
Then I got here.
I feel inadequate. I feel unsure of myself and my plan. I feel like I am not sure
why God sent me for this.
I had a meeting today with a good man, named Emmanuel, that is helping me start this ministry. The meeting went great and I feel like we made a lot of progress. But as we sat there talking about the enormity of the problem in just Rwanda alone, not talking about the trafficking problem worldwide, I felt like I was crazy for taking on such a big problem. Emmanuel reminded me of the story of Moses and the Burning Bush in the Bible. God had asked him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt and into the promised land. Moses asked God “Who am I to do this?” He felt like he was not qualified and he too felt inadequate. But God said “I am with you.” All Moses needed was God on his side and he was set, but just like any of us, he said “But…..” We all tend to think of reasons and excuses why we can’t do something.
“But what if they don’t listen?”
“What if they don’t believe me?”
“I don’t know how to speak well.”
We come up with every reason we can to make ourselves less than able to do what we need to. But God says “I am with you.” He goes before us, He makes a way through. He can use anyone or anything He wants to make a difference.
So do I think I can attack this enormous problem? NO.
Do I think I will even put a dent in helping the ever growing number of abused
women in this world? NO.
But God can and He chooses, for now, to use me. So the question is ‘If not me, then who?’ We all have flaws and we all fall short of meeting the requirements to make any lasting difference in this world by ourselves. But with God all things are possible!